Days full of stress!!!

At this moment i am totally stressed out, final exams coming soon on 1 Nov and i jz can't help it, i hv to catch up tons of stupid textbooks and i jz not in the right mood to study. I hate myself being like this, where is the spirit of study, where is the energy of life? I feel myself like a fool now, crying for no reason...

I hv no place to release my tension, true friends are not here anymore, i hv no place to turn to and again, i feel like i need a cigarette, i am so weak and i am jz a poor girl after all,

As Bernice said, i hv no mood in study and she has no mood in her life, life sucks and ya i know how you feel, if you're here i really wanna give you a big hug buddy...

The day almost gone and i did nothing, i jz let go my time, stressed out and really can't study at this moment, i feel like death now, reading my buddy's blog and know that phoebe is not really good though, she got sick, everyone seems going wrong...

Again i ate a lot, this is my self-punishment, i used to do that when i am totally stress out, then i feel like vomit, suddenly i miss my family, esp my dad for no reasons, i feel sorry coz he put lots of confidence on me, and i jz so weak suddenly, No No No this is not what i want and dad i know i can't let you down, i must be tough as you used to be, at least i hope i'll try to be tough when i think of you, Ah Zanne cannot be like this, I wanna be your excellent daugther forever...

Sorry i turn to cigarette again,
better finish it and take a bath to refresh my mind
then back on my study for stupid final

Don't give up
Keep going and you'll get there stupid girl~

Who ler???

She is crazy but she aint abnormal
She is sarcastic but she is nice
She is dirty minded but she is funny
She have bad temper but she is patient (sometimes)
She has a big face but she is cute
She is fat but she is happy
She is stubborn but she is good
She is silly but she is hardworking
She is boring person but she is funny
She dont speak fluent english but she is friendly
She don't like to study but she always work hard
She is lonely but she like to live alone
She need someone caring but she pretend to be cool all the time
She is confident but she lost sometimes
She is not expert in shooting but she love to shot very much
She don't need much friends but she trust her best friends and she know who they are
She always feel stress most of the time but she'll try her best
She always run out of $ but she is still Alive on the earth
She don't really well in express herself in daily life but she express herself better online
AND she is online now...

Who ler???
She like people to call her: Ah Zanne...P